"A Story Not Shared Does Not Serve."
I am a counselor, educator, doctor, intuitive healer, certified nutrition coach and mother. I am here to help raise the vibration of our mother earth through my work with women in improving their mental, physical, and spiritual health – with a special focus on the condition of anxiety and the somatic symptoms that generally accompany anxious thoughts.
Now more than ever, there are women all over the world (especially in industrialized nations) suffering from physical conditions that are impacting their psychological well-being and causing unimaginable symptoms of anxiety. I was one of them. I suffered from debilitating and crippling anxiety throughout childhood and into adulthood. I've experienced panic attacks, anxiety seizures, heart palpitations, unexplainable itching, night sweats, racing thoughts, intrusive thoughts, restlessness, insomnia (for years!), ongoing fatigue, ringing in the ears, headaches, burning in the neck and shoulders, tics, spasms, pinched nerves so bad I've been in and out of the ER - and so much more. I have experienced the shame, confusion, pain and isolation that you likely have.
I am here, like you, to share my story because a story not shared does not serve.
I realized at a young age that I was different. I took things to heart, I worried about the future, I ruminated on the past, my thoughts tended to run in unfulfilling circles around nonsense and events that hadn't yet transpired. Many years would pass before I knew to call this anxiety. I assumed everyone thought in these circles and worried this much.
As I got older, I began to feel it in my body, particularly in my neck where I tend to carry trauma in a spiritual and emotional sense. This baggage began to manifest itself when I started to drive at the age of sixteen. The added pressure of being behind the wheel contributed to what neurologists refer to as "cervical dystonia," which in my case is emotional trauma and the shingles virus residing in my neck causing the muscles to twitch and spasm and turn my head to the left. From the time my symptoms began, it took me almost twenty years to discover what was really going on inside my body. Twenty years I spent going to dozens of doctors, trying dozens of medications, spending tens of thousands of dollars and living in complete exhaustion and confusion. Not to mention that while the treatments I had received were suppressing my symptoms, they were ultimately making me sicker, more tired and upping my toxic load.
The spasms were painful and embarrassing. I tried to keep my condition a secret and suppress the spasms which did inevitably make the pain much worse. I had a very difficult time connecting with others due to the shame that I felt. Eventually I had isolated myself to such a point that I began to feel out of touch with reality.
"Challenges are what make life interesting...
Overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."
Hoping to gain insight, I immersed myself in books and documentaries. The documentary that changed my life, "What the Bleep Do We Know?" opened my mind to the idea that there is a divine and brilliant intelligence in this world that we can work with to reach our dreams. I then read Abraham-Hicks "Law of Attraction" and felt that I finally understood how powerful each of us are in orchestrating our own life experience in alignment with our higher selves and the laws that govern us all. That was over a decade ago, citing the media that changed my life forever.
In addition to self-paced learning, I sought three degrees in counseling and psychology and as I talked to colleagues and friends I started to realize that so many were dealing with severe anxiety that was impacting their lives and holding them back from achieving their dreams.
The U.S., in fact, is plagued with anxiety levels unmatched in human history. Anxiety-related disorders are among the most common mental health conditions in the U.S. and around the globe, with increasing rates of disability due to these conditions (NAMI, 2017). According to a survey by Harvard University, an estimated 19.1% of US adults have had a diagnoseable anxiety disorder in the past year (Harvard, 2007). In addition, the Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA) notes that these disorders are the most common mental illnesses in the U.S., affecting around 40 million adults aged 18 and above — that’s 18 percent of the population!
Many times anxiety is caused by a combination of two factors; 1) an overload of toxins in the body, and 2) a poor diet that negatively impacts gut health and other bodily systems. Fifty percent of the immune system resides in the gut and 90% of serotonin lives in the gut, according to recent research. Therefore, healthy gut equals healthy mind. Poor nutrition is a significant and modifiable risk factor for the development of mental illness overall. There is plenty of research to show that good nutrition or the RIGHT nutrition, including nutrient dense anxiety-eliminating super foods, is one of the most effective forms of treatment for depression and anxiety (Jacka et al., 2017).
And interestingly enough, when someone reports that they are dealing with anxiety we tend to offer them two options: 1) talk therapy and/or 2) psychotropic medication(s). However, when we offer only these two options we almost completely ignore either of the two factors mentioned above. For example, of all of the doctors and therapists I saw over the years I never had a single conversation about my diet. The vast majority of my clients share that they have had similar experience and they are looking for alternative solutions to this cycle. By modifying my diet, adding supplements that my body needed and was missing FOR YEARS, addressing spiritual, emotional and psychological issues head on, learning to relax, meditate, be more mindful and live a conscious lifestyle I have been able to manage stress, anxiety and dystonia.
"Bad moments don't make bad moms."
Perhaps the worst anxiety I ever experienced came after the birth of my two sons, eight years apart. The anxiety exhausted me to such a point that I could barely manage to get out of bed. I questioned whether I wanted to go on.
Postpartum anxiety is a real thing and it effects many new moms, more now-a-days than I think research or medical science can adequately track – leaving countless numbers of new moms to feel more isolated and confused than they’ve ever felt in their lives – with more responsibilities than they’ve ever had before!
If you or someone you love are suffering from postpartum anxiety or depression please encourage them to get help now. Remind them that bad moments don't make bad moms. Postpartum anxiety is not your fault.
Truth be Told.
I never could have imagined the path I had set for myself when I one day humbly asked Spirit to show me nothing other than “truth” going forward. The whole truth and nothing but the truth – good or bad. This request for sacred knowledge opened up doorways in my life to truths that I probably needed to hear but wasn’t always ready to hear. Some of you may know that when you pray for sacred knowledge (and really mean it from the core of your being) things happen in life that you may not think you are ready for, but which always turn out to be for your highest good.
To summarize, I wound up getting sick, my life flipped on its head and I was left standing alone in a deep, proverbial pit with a very small shovel to dig my way out. I was embarrassed and ashamed of my symptoms, both physical and emotional – I felt alone, isolated, and confused. My anxiety shot off the charts. I could barely move. The physical symptoms perpetuated the emotional stuff I had going on, the emotional stuff made me feel worse physically. I was pulled to undergo a remarkable transformation.
And when I say I got sick, I don’t mean that I went to the doctor, received a pretty label, and went about my way to getting well. The one diagnosis that I’ve had over the years, “dystonia,” doesn’t actually mean anything. I think it’s literal translation is “a twisting organ.”
Can you relate to having a label that describes the symptoms of your suffering as opposed to the cause or cure?
Anxiety is really just a word used to describe an entire host of possible symptoms (ringing in the ears, insomnia, restlessness, headaches, tightness in the chest, panic attacks – you name it!).
Many times women suffer from mystery symptoms and mystery illness that can’t yet be explained. The “mystery” lies in getting answers that don’t actually explain – well – anything.
Yet, getting sick was the best thing that ever happened to me in that it forced me to learn how to heal – how to heal and nourish my body and mind. And enduring physical and emotional suffering simultaneously is one of the greatest challenges life has to offer. Our resistance to anxiety is what brings about more anxiety. There is a lesson in recovery that stays with us and all healers must first learn to heal themselves. Pain and anxiety can offer a great deal of opportunity for personal growth, although they admittedly do cause a great deal of suffering. Trust that there is meaning in this suffering.
I know now that through the experience of suffering I learned true empathy for my fellow sisters who are also suffering and I learned how to heal.
Needless to say, my relationships with those around me changed dramatically in a short period of time – those who didn’t understand being sick, those who didn’t understand how to heal with little or no drugs, and those who did not understand the body’s relationship to food as medicine. Perhaps the most significant part of my journey was the “team” of practitioners I attracted. Those who specialized in past life work, energy work, intuitive healing, nutrition, shamanism and herbalism. Practitioners who showed me my heart and led me to have the self confidence to address my health and well being on a terrestrial and also spiritual level. I had to learn to trust myself, to trust my body, and to welcome radical healing into my life. These drastic and dramatic changes allowed me to know the truth as it really was and more importantly, allowed me to learn to listen to my heart over my head. And let me tell you from the bottom of my heart, I’ve been there.
Now I am Here to Help You!
Do you suffer from anxiety? Might you benefit from emotional support?
Do you have physical symptoms that won’t go away – restlessness, itching, insomnia, stomach trouble, headaches, dry mouth, dizziness, panic attacks, tightness in the chest?
Have you been to many different doctors and specialists, still without answers or solutions to your anxiety?
Do you crash in the afternoon or find yourself taking naps to get by? Do you struggle to fall asleep, wake up in the middle of the night? Find yourself in an endless, limited sleep cycle?
Do you often worry that there may be something seriously wrong? Like an undiagnosed medical condition?
Well, there might be! I will never tell you that what you are feeling is in your head (no-siree). Or give you the definition of hypochondriac. Scouts honor.
By the way, while we are on the topic, there’s a reason why conditions like hypochondriasis and conversion disorder are listed by organizations, such as the National Organization for Rare Disorders (NORD) because they are exactly that – rare. 99 times out of 100 symptoms are real, the medical system offers very little, and women are left to blame, “it must be in her head!”
Well, no it ain’t.
It’s not in your head.
Are you sick of this label? Me, too.
Our society is sicker than ever (women, especially!) It is NOT in your head that you feel this bad. Let’s get to the bottom of your physical ailments, especially those linked to anxiety and depression.
Do you feel depressed? Probably. Because anxiety can be utterly exhausting. And any person who has dealt with anxiety long enough will get depressed at some point. It is a long-term symptom, really. This is why the two are so often referenced together, almost as if they were the same thing. And generally speaking, half of those who have depression also experience anxiety. However, only about a third of those suffering from anxiety ever seek help – so congratulate yourself for landing here!
Do you find yourself trying to explain yourself to friends and family? Is there a general lack of compassion for your suffering? Have you heard that it is ‘all in your head’? Or have you been told to, ‘just think positive’? (You will never hear me say that!)
Do you ever feel alone, isolated, or confused?
It would be my greatest honor to work with you as you walk your healing path. I want to hear your story and work with you on paving the way to a better life, one free from needless anxiety. I can offer you support and genuine empathy as you work toward better mental health. And trust me when I say that there are answers to aid in the psychological distress you have been experiencing. And as I’ve said before – ANXIETY IS NOT YOUR FAULT! It is not a result of “bad” thinking in most cases. There is nothing “wrong with you.” I will work with you on your motivation and changing your lifestyle habits to improve the condition of your body and mind.
What if I told you that there are thousands of women out there having the same fear-producing thoughts that you are having, however, they don’t FEEL nearly as bad as you do!
There’s a reason for that. And it is not your fault. But there are specific changes you can make.
An Experienced Practitioner
I have had the incredible fortune of working with a great number of unique individuals over the course of my career. I have worked with women and children suffering from domestic abuse. I have worked in the substance abuse field as well as corrections. I have worked with those who were at the lowest point of their lives and wanted badly to end it all. I saw unimaginable strength in both men and women who literally had to pick themselves up from the floor and start over, with little or no strength to get by – they found enough courage to live. These stories still inspire me to help others. I’ve counseled in the homes of the sick and the poor, working with children and families, to find solutions for their day to day challenges. It is such an honor to have worked with so many souls and to have been a part of their story.
Nothing you say will ever offend me. Nothing you say will shock or surprise me. I have seen a lot and I know how to help you with your anxiety – starting TODAY.
Education, Coaching Training and Credentials
- E.d.D. Counselor Education & Supervision
- M.A. Mental Health Counseling
- B.A. Psychology University of South Florida
- Certified Body Mind Performance Coach
- Licensed Counselor (Florida, U.S.)
- Certified Domestic Violence Counselor